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Name: Audrey
Birthday: 7/19/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: I love God, He is the reason i'm alive. i also love my family and friends. I like guys too.lol. I enjoy hanging out with friends, reading, writing poetry, photography, and acting. i also like to paint now. Blue is my favorite color, buti also like pink. I enjoy the BEAUTIFUL scenery, especially colorful skies. i like to laugh REALLY HARD, and relax. I love to sing, even though i can't really. summer is my favorite time of year, but i enjoy the snow. I love Christmas songs. I think they are my favorite. I like old movies and music, and i love watching plays. i enjoy people, and different cultures. i like Sonic, Long John Silvers, Chinese, Chedders, etc. i like to sleep in if i can. i enjoy the lake, and like to swim. i like making cookies, and "playing" the piano. i like to bowl. i like small town life, and country sights. I like to watch Gilmore Girls and Amazing Race, among other things. I like.... and the list goes on, but i'll stop now for you.lol.
Expertise: i'm good at making people laugh, and taking pictures. making cookies, they are yummy if i do say so myself.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
9/30/2004
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| it's funny how being home makes me feel like i never left, and that i don't really live in Kansas City and have a job. it just doesn't seem real. it is so nice being home. i have missed my family and friends. today has been a great day and i know tomorrow will be too. oh how i have missed the country and the smallness of it all. as i was driving home i loved seeing the fields, and trees. the sunset too, it was all so lovely and relaxing. today i shopped with my mom and sisters and i got some much needed shoes. it was fun to hang out and talk. then i ran into some friends from home and we ate out, one is recently engaged and she asked me to take their wedding pictures, which of course i will. then i was kept to secrecy on another matter that involves a camera and computer, and that makes me soo happy. wow, God is good. I could use prayer however in finding a church in KC, and not having to work so early so i can go to church. today was really a break and it was wonderful. i needed a break from the big city. it is funny but in small towns i feel free. i will be sad to leave, but God is in control and He is taking care of me, so i will live in the big city.
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| So a few things have changed since i last updated. i got a full time job at Sears Portrait Studio in Kansas City. it is going pretty good, but it is crazy. i also realized that today everyone is going back to school and I'm not. i kept thinking that it was just a summer job, but its not. i like it now, the first few days i was stressed because i had to learn alot of new things, but now i am more confident in my work, though i still need help ringing up. i am living with my aunt. it is different. i miss my apartment. though i like hanging out with people i need space, and since i was used to it in Joplin it is totally different. i had to work Sunday so i haven't found a church, and that is hard. i want to meet people. its kind of like in Joplin i was taking two steps forward and moving here made me take one step back. in joplin i was becoming confident in who i was, but here it is different. it feels like i got a curve ball. anyway i am off today and that is nice and much needed. i will write more later your friend, Audrey Lee | | |
| well folks life is better, still no job. i really need one but trying to trust God, here lately i have been getting calls from kansas city and springfield, i like where i am at though and i felt called here. i think this is a test. i need patience and direction though. in other news i have met some new friends who are very fun. it is nice to have friends in a new place. tomorrow i head out to the family reunion that shall be much fun. it will be good to catch up and play games, possibly, or most likely swim a little. i can't believe i am almost 22, it feels weird and not that i should be 22 soon. you know GOD has truly blessed me even through all the craziness. i have enough money for at least 1 month more of rent, and since i don't work much i can take pics on the side. though i hope it doesn't last forever, and God provided for everything i need in my apartment and then some. though i came to a totally new place, and was a little nervous, he has taken care of me, so i know HE will in the future whatever it may be.
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart
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| Am i enough? what is wrong with me? sometimes i just want to do something so unpredictable. but i don't because i don't. people think i can't. maybe i won't but they don't know what goes though my head sometimes. it's hard. i don't know anymore. i am so tired of being native. i feel stuck, i feel alone sometimes, it hurts so much at times. Will i ever be loved? that is all i have ever wanted, to feel needed, to be enough for somebody. i am just tired, tired of it all. trust God, i have tried, i am still trying, but i want to give up or have. i don't know. it hurts. what should i do? this is me everybody!!!!!! though no one reads this, so that is good, all my feeling will be left out in the open, this is how i feel. i'm so tired of being or at least feeling different than everybody else. that is all
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| i am standing in a room. i see you standing there. you laugh, you smile. you look right past me. it's like i'm not even there. i may be quiet but that doesn't mean that i don't feel. do you even see me? i am no beauty, i know the truth, but everybody wants to be loved. if i could just have a look knowing i am there, it would be great if you cared. there seems to be something in the air here, but i do not feel the air. i am tired, tired of this stale air. if i could just feel the air. a flower. you're still there, and i am still here. there is a great barrier between us. if you breath to you see me, take my hand show you care. if i could feel the air. i don't have much but what i have is what i've got. i want to breath, the air brushes past me, i breath, you smile and you touch me. see i'm here. | | |
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